A few weeks later...

I am at the Ixtapa aeropuerto. There is so much space inside of me. Clear, unadulterated space. I've had plenty of time and freedom to think about what direction I want to head this year. I'd been considering staying in Humboldt as I did the previous year, that would be the most financially sound plan. But I know at my core that I am a nomadic being. The longer I stay in one spot the more I am drained of my passion, my serenity. My essence becomes dull and muddled. When traveling, adventuring, I am alive and I am myself. I continually try to force myself into having a home base and reasons to stay there. No more I think. I'm going on several trips, that will take me into spring. After that the weather will be getting warmer and that means only one thing to me- motorcycle weather.
My plan? One pack, couch surfing, motorcycles, tattoos, southern states... I plan to have a real "american" (say that in your best redneck voice) summer. Where I'll be and when? I hardly know. How long? As long as I can. I'd hope until the weather cools and I'm back to humboldt for the fall. After that? I think I'd like to go to central and south America for quite some time. And because of that notion I intend to do America this year, do it the way I view America, in it's quintessence. I'm utilizing what little networking skills I possess (ahem... Facebook) to find a person who builds choppers. I don't know shit about mechanics and I'm not particularly mechanically inclined. I do however love motorcycles something fierce. And I would like to know how to build one, their ins & outs and how to keep up with general maintenance. I imagine staying on a farm, learning how to do this in a barn as sunlight streams in on a cantankerous old timer with naval tattoos... But we'll see who (if anyone) takes me on as a student. I'm not sure if/when/how that will happen but I hope it is a part of my American adventure.
My other goal for this summer is to get some more artwork on my body. I've got a wish list of artists and more than a few tattoo ideas bouncing around in my mind's eye. These artists are spread cross-country and are booked months in advance, thus adding some parameters to my summer time wandering.
Along with bikes and tats, I want to see farms. I so dearly want to ride horses again! I've been learning a bit about composting and sustainable living, I'd like to see this as it applies to farm life. Some day I hope to homestead or move to Uruguay and start a self-sustaining village, so any knowledge along these lines will be much needed.
Lastly, I want to meet my forever man. The moment I turned 25 I heard an audible "tic" and suddenly pregnancy no longer seemed a parasitic problem I may contract, ending like a scene from Alien. Much to the shock of anyone who knows me, and even greater so to myself, I wanna get knocked up. There is so much joy in my life and I've gone to all the dark corners of my soul and swept up the shattered bits....I'm ready to consider being a mom. I want to fall in love with the man I will eventually start making babies with. Everyone says that it's when you least expect it that your true love will arrive, I'm good with that. However, I just want to put this out into the universe; to my forever man, I'll be blowing around like a seed upon the wind. If you should happen to see me you better snatch me up and plant me in some rich beautiful soil. I want to grow and flourish with you.
Until my baby making days arrive, I wander! A gypsy life, chance paths taken, flying leaps, ETCETERA!
farewell Mexico, I hold you very dear to my heart! You will always be the safe haven I return to to lick my wounds and jump back into life swinging :)